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I think in my case, I had the idea that the basic idea of scientology was correct, and that the actual application of scientology as being carried out by orgs, management, and the staff, was just not getting it done in the way that "Ron" would have done it. That was the way that I had handled my dissonance.Yep, that's very true. Which is why one needs a certain amount of self-confidence and risk-taking to get out.
At some point, one needs to say: "Actually, I know better than Hubbard/CoS - thank you very much!"
Those who lacked sufficient self-confidence to put their own experience above church doctrine... well, they are still in.
I believed that the tech itself would work to the degree it was applied properly. I believed that orgs would function successfully to the degree that they could get functions on the org board fulfilled.
I believed that management would get it's job done to the degree that org's could get their part done.
What was needed was a bit of expansion, and some luck.
I believed that not of all the tech was being applied, because no one had the time to actually ensure that. For example, did any org anywhere actually have a KOT?
The above is how I thought from ten to twenty years into my almost thirty year experience in scientology.