I Give Up

[Karakorum]

I was never raised right. My mom never wanted to be a mother, my dad never wanted to be a father, and I didn't want to be there either. (I can't say what my 2 brothers thought.)

My father was a narcissistic violent type and a childbeater. My mother was neglectful, doing the absolute minimum in terms of contact with us. (She was a "loose woman" before she got married, and got in trouble, but that's a story for another time.)

My elder brother teased and annoyed me every single day of my life. He made up a nickname for me and soon had the entire neighborhood calling me that. He criticized my every move, and when he couldn't find anything to fault me for, he would just make up something. When you're disrespected every single day of your life, you begin to believe there really is something wrong with you.

Even my grandmother, rest her soul, did her part by twisting everything around to make it look like it was all my fault.

Together, they kept me in a state of continuous fight-or-flight mode, which I believed directly or indirectly caused my Asperger's Syndrome, sugar addiction, and Metabolic Syndrome.

Eventually, I grew up and moved out, something I couldn't wait to do. I went low-contact with the lot of them, not seeing them for up to 7 years at a time.

I mean I do not want to sound like I'm defending or supporting Hubbard-style disconnection policies.
But there is a grain of truth even in his stuff there. There for sure are some people who are so toxic and detrimental to one's wellbeing that the simplest and easiest way is simply to avoid interacting with them at all.

 

[Inanna]

Helena, I am very sorry for what you’ve been experiencing. Some say this reality is “the matrix”, others say it’s maya/illusion. I know it seems pretty damn real (and painful) but there may be truth to these terms.

I can’t offer advice as I only know what seems to soothe myself and I have no business telling anyone what they should do or feel.

Just— I’ve always liked your posts and am rooting for you.

 

[Helena Handbasket]

Well the shit hit the fan this time. I've recently been diagnosed with cancer.

The hospital put me on the usual oncology-treatment track, and I must say I'm less than impressed.

I have lost faith in standard oncology treatment. I never liked the idea of poisoning the body in order to save it, and my recent experiences (3 radiations and 1 chemotherapy) have confirmed this. I won't be going back.

There were several "tells" that led me to believe the situation is worse than I imagined, and that they are well prepared to manipulate the patient into setting aside any doubts and sticking with the standard program.

For one thing, they were all over me. After one of the radiations, they were fussing over me to help me get dressed -- even though I didn't ask them to, and would have preferred to just do it myself. (They even tried to put my skirt on upside down!)

This wasn't just a matter of the pride of doing it myself. It made me wonder if this is normal for cancer patients -- that either they are unable to do these things for themselves anymore, or if they are able, that the treatments will soon make them unable.

I have especially noticed the way certain treatment requirements were given to me one at a time, and each time I accepted it, the next demand would soon follow. This slow escalation is a manipulative technique, and is something Hitler used. (One doctor in particular took umbrage over the reference.)

Specifically:

. . (1) You need 4 weeks of radiation therapy, but chemotherapy is optional

. . (2) If you have chemo, and have side effects, you can stop the chemo

. . (3) You need chemo because it makes the radiation more effective

. . (4) After the radiation therapy, you have to have brachytherapy too

. . (5) We'll offset chemo's side effects with additional medications

. . (6) Did I say 4 weeks of radiation? -- you need 5 weeks

It seems like this was all carefully choreographed to keep me fixed on the standard track.

"Accepted" oncology is starting to sound more and more like a death sentence a bit at a time. I'm quitting radiation and chemo and going with alternative therapies instead.

I e-mailed my cousin about this and she was aghast. She reacted like I signed my own death warrant, and suggested I get my affairs in order now before I'm on narcotics and can't think straight anymore. But I'm seeing another doctor next week, one who believes in alternative therapies. (I've already started some of the basic steps, like dietary changes.)

Well, there you have it. If I didn't have a reason to give up before, I sure do now.

One request -- I'm looking for a cancer patient online message board, something similar to ESMB2. Ideally, it should be friendly to discussion of alternative therapies; preferably peer based, not doctor/professional led. No live chat, individual consultations, in-person meetings, or social media (e.g. Facebook) based groups. And anywhere in the world, as long as it's in English. Does anyone out there know of such a group?

Helena

 

[Type4_PTS]

Helena, there are probably dozens of groups on Facebook. I did a random search, and this group came up with 149,000 members.
Natural Cancer Cures

Facebook

www.facebook.com

I own some of the paid products from Ty Bollinger, who traveled around the world, interviewing doctors and scientists who have a good track record with helping people. I'm willing to share it if you're interested. This is their website, but the best stuff is in the paid series.

The Truth About Cancer – The Latest Cancer Fighting News

The Latest Cancer Fighting News

thetruthaboutcancer.com

I think Ralph Moss is a good source of information as well, or at least he was about 20 years ago when I looked into his work. He was very good at finding the best treatment plan for you, depending on what type of cancer. It was helpful because researching it all on your own can quickly become overwhelming - there's so much information out there.

The Moss Report Home

www.themossreport.com

Whichever type of treatment you pursue, whether it is mainstream, alternative, or complementary, find a doctor who has a successful track record with helping patients with the same issue you are dealing with.
But whatever you do, don't give up. Your mindset is very important and will enable you to recover.


If you want the info from Ty Bollinger I'll share a link from my OneDrive - It's a hundred or more hours of video!

 

[lotus]

for what it may worth,

Being trained in this field of practice I know quite well the major groups and that alternative groups are no better than conventional; Both spread misconception, misinformations and alternative groups push off label parasite drugs or a few natural compounds to be the panacea, which is not right. Metabolic approach works with stacking multiple compounds according to the personal situation and signaling pathways of the disease.

The research has proven that integrative oncology brings about the best results, especially with the metabolic approach; However, the main components that we observe in any cancer sufferer responding well for a healing/remission are:

1) faith in healing
2) proactively working for a healing
3) Total dedication into implementing lifestyle modification, nutrition program, exercices, méditation, mind body techniques , social support and supplements needed.

You might wish to read « Starving cancer « from Jane McLelland , as a first step into proactively researching.

Regarding groups, the groups dedicated to the metabolic approach like those of Dr Nasha Winters are among the best.

Healing from a chronic systemic disease requires we heal ourselves from all toxicities: physical, environmental, mental, emotional, and spiritual; then, we will have grown out of this challenging situation, no matter what the outcome is.

As Type4 suggested Ralph Moss is a very good ressource , especially his books on cancer and natural compounds. But consulting a competent practitioner in metabolic ( integrative oncology) approach and your specific cancer, would be well advised. I like Dr Brian Lawenda who is extremely competent in both conventional and complementary in USA. He does remote consultations.

 

[Helena Handbasket]

Helena, there are probably dozens of groups on Facebook. I did a random search, and this group came up with 149,000 members.
Natural Cancer Cures

Facebook

www.facebook.com

I own some of the paid products from Ty Bollinger, who traveled around the world, interviewing doctors and scientists who have a good track record with helping people. I'm willing to share it if you're interested. This is their website, but the best stuff is in the paid series.

The Truth About Cancer – The Latest Cancer Fighting News

The Latest Cancer Fighting News

thetruthaboutcancer.com

I think Ralph Moss is a good source of information as well, or at least he was about 20 years ago when I looked into his work. He was very good at finding the best treatment plan for you, depending on what type of cancer. It was helpful because researching it all on your own can quickly become overwhelming - there's so much information out there.

The Moss Report Home

www.themossreport.com

Whichever type of treatment you pursue, whether it is mainstream, alternative, or complementary, find a doctor who has a successful track record with helping patients with the same issue you are dealing with.
But whatever you do, don't give up. Your mindset is very important and will enable you to recover.


If you want the info from Ty Bollinger I'll share a link from my OneDrive - It's a hundred or more hours of video!

I'm a boomer. I don't do Facebook, Twitter, X, Instagram, TikTok, Reddit, or any other form of ******* social media. I also don't do apps or SMS. I don't trust self-checkout or AI. I have never tasted avocado toast and hope I never will. I don't recognize the names of most 21st-century artists and media personalities. And while I'm at it, I don't do gratitude or forgiveness either. Call me an old fart or neo-Luddite if you will, but that's the way it is.

And I've already given up. That is not going to change.

My life has been a continuing series of disasters. I want a do-over.

That's why they call me ...

Helena Handbasket

 

[Type4_PTS]

I'm a boomer. I don't do Facebook, Twitter, X, Instagram, TikTok, Reddit, or any other form of ******* social media. I also don't do apps or SMS. I don't trust self-checkout or AI. I have never tasted avocado toast and hope I never will. I don't recognize the names of most 21st-century artists and media personalities. And while I'm at it, I don't do gratitude or forgiveness either. Call me an old fart or neo-Luddite if you will, but that's the way it is.

And I've already given up. That is not going to change.

My life has been a continuing series of disasters. I want a do-over.

That's why they call me ...

Helena Handbasket

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[I M Dex]

I'm a boomer. I don't do Facebook, Twitter, X, Instagram, TikTok, Reddit, or any other form of ******* social media. I also don't do apps or SMS. I don't trust self-checkout or AI. I have never tasted avocado toast and hope I never will. I don't recognize the names of most 21st-century artists and media personalities. And while I'm at it, I don't do gratitude or forgiveness either. Call me an old fart or neo-Luddite if you will, but that's the way it is.

And I've already given up. That is not going to change.

My life has been a continuing series of disasters. I want a do-over.

That's why they call me ...

Helena Handbasket

If I may inject some hopefully uplifting levity:
History will forever recognize and celebrate the your fortitude in the resolute stand stand you take on the subject of avocado toast. Somebody had to do it, and you stepped up. Kudos!