I was in the private message box when I should've been paying attention in live time.
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Yes, it is funny how some processing tools work and other just don't hit the mark, even within the same sets and grade. I think it's because we're more or less oriented in a certain way by the masses we're sandwiched between. One thing won't let you have another thing, until it's out of the way. I have this thing with Alan Walter's material where I never get it at first It hits me awkwardly.....until weeks late, I get the aha moment. Lolol. I'm dense that way, and it's gotta filter down through a bit . But, it will eventually get there.
Your army buddies weren't in the diving squad were they, Chess? I'd be guessing that becoming a hermit is the result of injuries, trauma or addictions?
You do feel alone and isolated when you don't have the same shared experiences with anyone. You just don't fit in there anymore once something horrific happens.
Running R3R, I would hit upon some occluded atrocity committed while a soldier. My whole body would lock up with the memory. I'd try to freeze the motion while inside the
killing machine; (phalanx) way back in some ancient Greek wars. No vias, like planes or tanks or drones. Kinda had the notion I'd be born female, so I'd never be in that situation again.
A decade on staff is a long time. My husband wore out after 3 years. No money, no hope, no future, no more wife. Everyone loved him. Handled public. Division 6. It's nice to have people you work with and for, want badly for you to stay. It feels almost like a mini-death to give up an all engrossing position.....and not have another immediately there. At least for me.