I've witnessed first hand that people who are suppose to be clear are anything but. What I have experienced from one free session was digging up a repressed memory from childhood and with a little suggestive tone from an auditor I was able to express extreme anger which I thought I was incapable of. I deeply wounded one of the Scientologist with my words who was trying to prevent me from leaving the building."I'm currently reading Dianetics. I thought auditing with a partner would be a good experience? Thoughts? "
If you are currently reading dianetics, then you will need a partner who has also read dianetics,
both of you will be auditing your selfs to the state of of Clear. That is the main theme of the book, that is you can go Clear, or be a human being without psychosomatic illness.
Let me tell you that this is not true. No two people that have read Dianetics have achieved the state of Clear. Nor have any people who got professional auditing from the Church of Scientology.
While there are claims of "clear", it actually has never happened.
Don't let me stop you, get a partner who has read dianetics and audit yourselfs.
Many have tried.
All in all 4 years later and after doing a lot more release of pent up rage (thankfully I didn't kill anyone) I feel like I can finally pay attention to my own emotions. It broke whatever psychological barrier I had up that was preventing me from paying attention to my own emotions. "Clear" might not be real to me, but I do feel there might still be benefits for me doing the exercises.
Are engrams even a thing? Seems like malarkey to me.