Scientology tech experts review Lisa McPherson’s grim cycle of guilt and self-blame

[Karen#1]

TONY ORTEGA
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[Claire Headley and Sunny Pereira]
Thirty years ago today, at three in the morning, Brenda Hubert woke up in her Orlando hotel room to find her roommate, Lisa McPherson, sitting on her, holding her arms down.

Two days earlier, Brenda and Lisa had traveled together by car from Clearwater to attend a business conference. They were co-workers at AMC Publishing, and the National Association of Independent Life Brokerage Agencies annual meeting was the biggest convention of the year for AMC. During the first two days of the conference, Brenda watched as Lisa had acted increasingly strangely. But late on the second day, a Thursday night, Lisa had managed to get through the company’s hosting of a hospitality suite without trouble and she had returned to their room at about midnight. Brenda herself got to the room at about 1 am and saw that Lisa was sleeping soundly.

Now, just a few hours later, in the early hours of Friday, November 17, Lisa appeared to be out of her mind. As she held Brenda down, Lisa urged her to get up and get dressed, saying that they were in terrible danger and that Brenda had to help her save the planet before it was too late.

“I couldn’t get her to calm down. She was ranting. Finally I shoved her off me and screamed at her to come to present time and knock it off,” Brenda wrote in a report about the event two days later. “She was going on and on about needing to be more responsible and that she had fucked up so badly that she couldn’t make amends for it — that she didn’t know how to do what was being asked of her.”

Lisa said the planet needed saving, and now. But as Brenda indicated in her report, Lisa also felt responsible for whatever it was that was threatening the entire world, that it was her fault that things were crumbling around her.

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Scientology tech experts review Lisa McPherson’s grim cycle of guilt and self-blame

Thirty years ago today, at three in the morning, Brenda Hubert woke up in her Orlando hotel room to find her roommate, Lisa McPherson, sitting on her, holding her arms down.

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[Hatshepsut]

Tragic.

I met a 19 yr old recruit at the Land Base in Clearwater who also seemed to be in a hypnotic, depressed panic, and stupor. She was told by her brother, one year older, who had also joined the Guardians Office (1981) at this same time, that her non productivity on post was just overts. The poor girl was endlessly on the Survival Rundown in the RPF and writing up O/Ws. She had previously been earning a lot, selling copper music boxes in Fort Lauderdale, just before joining staff. I remembered her before she went into the Estates Org. Broke my heart to see her suffer from wrong indications, sucked into the opinions of her condemners. I met her poolside last I saw her at Flag. She was tearful, wearing wrinkled clothes, her toes curling off over tops of sandals two sizes too small for her long body.

This fledgling recruit could no longer look outward to see she had exchanged her teenage life being a 'winning' person, for that of a FAILURE unable to save the planet because she was now so lame. This worried me. I, myself, was just crawling out of this same hole, and beginning to see the light, and glad I never joined up. I was going into sessions daily for my rollercoaster at this time and luckily had an Australian auditor who was an old timer, getting his Class VIII recertification. This guy had been through the wall of tapes at Saint Hill. along with friends who had suffered the infamous R2-12 death creaks. They were on the earliest clearing procedures where you listed, finding who or what opposition forces in your Goals Problems Mass. Many a person went suicidal, accidentally encapsulated into their enemy identity.... which nixed their goals.

This interning Flag auditor helped me to 'knock it off'. He cited instances of his original course mates. He recognized the situation, when in session, all I could do was regurgitate overts. I was full of whole track auto running of implants. I wasn't sleeping. Daily he took me down to the Lemon Tree cafeteria bar and bought me half dozens of cal mag shooters. He was very kind. I went home after my 13th Int Rundown, somewhat repaired. I was back in a year with similar self blame about overts having to do with work. This last time I was regarded as simply out-ethics and probably would not benefit there at Flag as my worries were psychotic. Well, shit, the psychosis was spoon fed.

I finally saw those somatics and 'feelings' were part of some shoes I was stuck in. I had to kick those off and leave. This world has a long history of closed out epochs, but if not a stegosaurus, why a sudden terror of velociraptors. In auditing things can sometimes veer you in the wrong direction and slide your attention into a black hole.
Writing O/Ws wont' fix this.

 

[Zertel]

If you're not a stegosaurus you should n't be worrying about velociraptors. Something has gone wrong somewhere to stick your attention if you're living in 2025.
Writing O/Ws wont' fix it.

Laughter

 

[I M Dex]

I went home after my 13th Int Rundown, somewhat repaired.

As I recall, for every half dozen "int rundowns", 6 punches on your "int rundown" card, you got a free pizza.

 

[Hatshepsut]

Laughter

Yeah, it's funny now, though it wasn't back then. A mind can be a home to living things best not stirred.

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[Hatshepsut]

As I recall, for every half dozen "int rundowns", 6 punches on your "int rundown" card, you got a free pizza.

 

[Zertel]

As I recall, for every half dozen "int rundowns", 6 punches on your "int rundown" card, you got a free pizza.

On our first trip I tried so hard to rearrange your mind
But after a while I realized you were disarranging mine ................laughter

 

[Enthetan]

Lisa said the planet needed saving, and now. But as Brenda indicated in her report, Lisa also felt responsible for whatever it was that was threatening the entire world, that it was her fault that things were crumbling around her.

We would get a steady stream of this: that the world was going to shit, and we needed to get off our asses and do more about it.

It came directly from LRH. You remember that HCOPL where he railed against people who wanted to go bowling instead of doing Scientology all the time? And called them suppressive?

I can see that shoving all that at a girl who’s not that well to begin with, could send her over the edge.

 

[Isaac]

Scientology auditing and training is designed for a person to introvert on themselves and blame themselves for everything wrong, including what they witness in Scientology
It boggled my mind the crimes that I witnessed and tried to do something about only to be met with “I wasn’t there “,“what did he or she that for?“
Referencing to the victims of the crimes

MAA and ethics officers told me to keep writing it up and sending it up lines for eternity
When I asked to see the reference, I was met with heavy and expensive interrogation sex checks unduly influencing and manipulating me to believe that I must’ve committed these crimes in the past life on the whole track or it wouldn’t bother me

An auditor during a sex check asked me when was the last time I extorted money out of someone
I threw the cans at the wall and walked out never to return again

THAT ^^is how Scientology works

 

[I M Dex]

An auditor during a sex check asked me when was the last time I extorted money out of someone
I threw the cans at the wall and walked out never to return again

You successfully EP'd the process!
Who says Scientology doesn't work!
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