Karen#1
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Is there anything more important in any relationship ?
I have been reflecting on what occurs as a commonality between each and every EX who departed the cult.
The nonsense that we all had CRIMES and OVERTS was debunked by Bill Franks in the communication he had from Hubbard, I will re-post it in comments.
I think the bedrock basic in any relationship is TRUST. Not just romantic relationships, but business relationships, relationships with one's religion, one's club, one's favorite internet board, facebook group ANY relationship. You count on someone because you have belief in them and then when they SNAP and act totally contrary to what you have believed them to be, TRUST is broken and the relationship is on a path to ending.
In the Sea org, all of us believed in it all, but we also were bamboozled into thinking management, senior Execs up the food chain were decent human beings. So suddenly atrocities in terms of unconscionable punishments are doled out. TRUST is shattered. I believe this is the one thing in in common with everyone of us who left.
TRUST was shattered. TRUST meant to us CONFIDENCE. But the opposite of TRUST ~~ distrust is suspicion
One day at INT Base I was hauled in for more security questions where I was asked if
1) I had been sent into the cult by the FBI
2) If I had been implanted by some drug at the dentist and unknown commands were implanted in my head.
3)If I intended to flee and go to the Los Angeles Times/IRS with my story
and other BIZARRE and off the wall questions getting more and more off the wall to the point of utter insanity.
Remember, at this time in my life I was a totally loyal dedicated Sea org member. I was in the MATRIX. Nothing could have been further from my mind than fleeing to the FBI !
My trust of the group I had signed up to belong to was now in crisis mode. This was not MY GROUP ~ these were some whacko lunatics who were adverserial. What was their motive ? What was the intent ?
It was the beginning of the end for me. It was a matter of time before I was done with my billion year contract.
The start of my 6 month imprisonment and sec checking was that I had said something I should not have said. No need to bring the hammer down. I could have been handled for my great *sin* a sit down and talking to. Not only did Miscavige and his thugs no longer inspire TRUST, they acted in a way which shattered TRUST.
I had an experience years and years ago which made me gain some new awareness on TRUST. I was flying back East to testify in an Art Fraud Law suit. $40 million dollar fraud, I was the Thomas Kinkade expert witness on Kinkade fraud.
This was while I was still IN the cult, out of the Sea Org, but in "good standing." I needed to leave my car at the airport and I had no idea when I would return. I looked up various airport long term parking as inexpensive as $12 a day, so I latched on to one.
Trials have a lot of variables. I had no idea when I would be back. When I arrived at this advertised parking lot, I could not BELIEVE it. It was nothing more than some patch of wilderness, wild grass over flat land. The nice helpful man who greeted me barely spoke English and signaled to me where to pull in. It was tight to catch my plane, I gave him $100 to cover plenty of days and handed over the keys to my ACURA. As I ran to catch the plane I realized what I had done. I had given a complete stranger the keys to my high end luxury car and $100. I thought to myself, I am likely never to see my car again.
I had so many urges to return to retrieve my car, but I could not turn back at the risk of missing my flight pre-paid by the Federal Prosecutors who expected my arrival By the time I was on the ramp as I felt more and more rattled as to what I had done.
TRUST. There was no TRUST
(Oh well I am fully insured I thought. Story ends that when I came back from South Carolina, my Acura was right there. My distrust was unfounded.)
But I tell the tale because TRUST is a huge big deal for me. I am of the opinion that PRIOR to any of us departing the CULT, it was TRUST that got violated. Of course we learn more and more of huge FRAUD and other felonies but this is after the fact.
There are tons of people under the radar in touch with me sharing their stories. They know by my record I am trustworthy hence they share their deepest secrets and even though I am all over social media, never in a million years could I betray that trust. But I am honored that I am so trusted.
Betrayal of TRUST is the end of the road.
Thoughts ?
I have been reflecting on what occurs as a commonality between each and every EX who departed the cult.
The nonsense that we all had CRIMES and OVERTS was debunked by Bill Franks in the communication he had from Hubbard, I will re-post it in comments.
I think the bedrock basic in any relationship is TRUST. Not just romantic relationships, but business relationships, relationships with one's religion, one's club, one's favorite internet board, facebook group ANY relationship. You count on someone because you have belief in them and then when they SNAP and act totally contrary to what you have believed them to be, TRUST is broken and the relationship is on a path to ending.
In the Sea org, all of us believed in it all, but we also were bamboozled into thinking management, senior Execs up the food chain were decent human beings. So suddenly atrocities in terms of unconscionable punishments are doled out. TRUST is shattered. I believe this is the one thing in in common with everyone of us who left.
TRUST was shattered. TRUST meant to us CONFIDENCE. But the opposite of TRUST ~~ distrust is suspicion
One day at INT Base I was hauled in for more security questions where I was asked if
1) I had been sent into the cult by the FBI
2) If I had been implanted by some drug at the dentist and unknown commands were implanted in my head.
3)If I intended to flee and go to the Los Angeles Times/IRS with my story
and other BIZARRE and off the wall questions getting more and more off the wall to the point of utter insanity.
Remember, at this time in my life I was a totally loyal dedicated Sea org member. I was in the MATRIX. Nothing could have been further from my mind than fleeing to the FBI !
My trust of the group I had signed up to belong to was now in crisis mode. This was not MY GROUP ~ these were some whacko lunatics who were adverserial. What was their motive ? What was the intent ?
It was the beginning of the end for me. It was a matter of time before I was done with my billion year contract.
The start of my 6 month imprisonment and sec checking was that I had said something I should not have said. No need to bring the hammer down. I could have been handled for my great *sin* a sit down and talking to. Not only did Miscavige and his thugs no longer inspire TRUST, they acted in a way which shattered TRUST.
I had an experience years and years ago which made me gain some new awareness on TRUST. I was flying back East to testify in an Art Fraud Law suit. $40 million dollar fraud, I was the Thomas Kinkade expert witness on Kinkade fraud.
This was while I was still IN the cult, out of the Sea Org, but in "good standing." I needed to leave my car at the airport and I had no idea when I would return. I looked up various airport long term parking as inexpensive as $12 a day, so I latched on to one.
Trials have a lot of variables. I had no idea when I would be back. When I arrived at this advertised parking lot, I could not BELIEVE it. It was nothing more than some patch of wilderness, wild grass over flat land. The nice helpful man who greeted me barely spoke English and signaled to me where to pull in. It was tight to catch my plane, I gave him $100 to cover plenty of days and handed over the keys to my ACURA. As I ran to catch the plane I realized what I had done. I had given a complete stranger the keys to my high end luxury car and $100. I thought to myself, I am likely never to see my car again.
I had so many urges to return to retrieve my car, but I could not turn back at the risk of missing my flight pre-paid by the Federal Prosecutors who expected my arrival By the time I was on the ramp as I felt more and more rattled as to what I had done.
TRUST. There was no TRUST
(Oh well I am fully insured I thought. Story ends that when I came back from South Carolina, my Acura was right there. My distrust was unfounded.)
But I tell the tale because TRUST is a huge big deal for me. I am of the opinion that PRIOR to any of us departing the CULT, it was TRUST that got violated. Of course we learn more and more of huge FRAUD and other felonies but this is after the fact.
There are tons of people under the radar in touch with me sharing their stories. They know by my record I am trustworthy hence they share their deepest secrets and even though I am all over social media, never in a million years could I betray that trust. But I am honored that I am so trusted.
Betrayal of TRUST is the end of the road.
Thoughts ?
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