Okay, so, long time lurker, never poster. I’m an ex-Church member myself, but it was a very brief involvement. Just my 7-ish months in the Church in 2018 and 2019 were hellish enough for me to feel like I’ve been mentally branded for life. I’m VERY resentful, and frankly bewildered by how flippin’ STRONG this sh** is. I feel like I’ll never NOT think in Scientology. I was at the org everyday with few exceptions, even if just for a few minutes but usually many hours during this time. I got really suckered in, made lots of friends bc I was unattached…y’know, as you do.
Anyways I’ve been very cautious about not revealing anything or really speaking out that much beyond DMs with a couple of other exes I know and an odd post here or there on [other places]— I don’t think I have to tell you why, I’m relatively confident you can infer. Anyways, it being still in my heart and in my head, unwavering to this moment, I began to long for it…which I know I shouldn’t do because I KNOW all the horrors now, I’ve seen teasers of it with my very eyes. I even signed a certain kinda document (would rather not get into details for the same reason yinz wore Guy Fawkes masks at protests). Anywhooo, this pining lead to me looking, with great caution, into the “Freezone” Scientologists/squirrels. I…don’t know what to say…partially, because…again: identifiable information (and I know people have been doxed on ESMB and probs here before) but also because: WOW! What in the Lord’s Good Name is happening with ex-SO in the Freezone? Half of them are following an Aryan Brotherhood guy claiming to be LRH? And the others are…well…zealous off their rockers. I’ve heard accusations of weird child abuse/grooming stuff happening with the ‘Independent Church of Scientology’ guys, I’ve heard that they’ve been going after people because they want to get exclusive rights to the name “Independent Scientology”…I hear S.O. auditors are sleeping with PCs.
I’m pretty scared to get involved but I NEED something. If anyone here has concrete evidence that these guys are doing the bad things I’ve seen threads about I’m all ears…but Scientology for me was an addiction and I need some methadone (heh heh) so I don’t go back into the Church. I’ve been watching the Freezone for a hot minute now. Plz help me, I'm very lost. Much appreciated xx ~~
Anyways I’ve been very cautious about not revealing anything or really speaking out that much beyond DMs with a couple of other exes I know and an odd post here or there on [other places]— I don’t think I have to tell you why, I’m relatively confident you can infer. Anyways, it being still in my heart and in my head, unwavering to this moment, I began to long for it…which I know I shouldn’t do because I KNOW all the horrors now, I’ve seen teasers of it with my very eyes. I even signed a certain kinda document (would rather not get into details for the same reason yinz wore Guy Fawkes masks at protests). Anywhooo, this pining lead to me looking, with great caution, into the “Freezone” Scientologists/squirrels. I…don’t know what to say…partially, because…again: identifiable information (and I know people have been doxed on ESMB and probs here before) but also because: WOW! What in the Lord’s Good Name is happening with ex-SO in the Freezone? Half of them are following an Aryan Brotherhood guy claiming to be LRH? And the others are…well…zealous off their rockers. I’ve heard accusations of weird child abuse/grooming stuff happening with the ‘Independent Church of Scientology’ guys, I’ve heard that they’ve been going after people because they want to get exclusive rights to the name “Independent Scientology”…I hear S.O. auditors are sleeping with PCs.
I’m pretty scared to get involved but I NEED something. If anyone here has concrete evidence that these guys are doing the bad things I’ve seen threads about I’m all ears…but Scientology for me was an addiction and I need some methadone (heh heh) so I don’t go back into the Church. I’ve been watching the Freezone for a hot minute now. Plz help me, I'm very lost. Much appreciated xx ~~