cowboy's family was in the SO . . . on the ship Apollo, then
cowboy worked at Hubbard's secret La Quinta bolt-hole.
"I spent thousands of hours over many years in daily contact with the man.I experienced first hand more than most could even imagine."
cowboy was roped in early. cowboy was a messenger
for Hubbard as a teen and young man for quite a few years.
". . . I started working at about 12.""I'm deluged still with thoughts and sorrows and regrets, acceptance of the harm I directly caused others through following orders. Hitler's orders to his staff were not enough to free them from consequences for their War Crimes. I can make excuses, but, in many ways I caused harm. I remember convincing someone to join the SO, to bring her family and young children in, to see her a year later in the RPF, her kids being worked like adults, being haunted by the unspoken accusation in her glance, "Why did you take me and my family away from the world we knew, for this?" her gaze said to me. Whatever happened to her, I wonder. Did she and her children leave, or did I rob them of their childhood like mine was robbed from me?"~ excerpt from cowboy's final post on ESMB ~Here's a gift from ESMB. A compiled PDF of all of cowboy's posts. If you haven't
read them, you should. They're the most illuminating insights into Scientology
and Hubbard's later years. All the original members of ESMB rave about them.
So well spoken and poignant.
I'll vouch for cowboy's actuality and authenticity.
ESMB member afaceinthecrowd vouches for cowboy.
The PDF compilation is hosted on MediaFire. I've scanned the PDF with 64 virus scanners at VirusTotal.
PDF cowboy threads
Make sure to read the brief description of the formatting conventions at the top,
so you don't get confused reading through it.
Original thread on ESMB
This is a potent "red pill." Enjoy.
Has someone done this with Face's posts? I would love to see you do this with Face's posts.