Not knowing that you are traumatized and keeping on going the same abuses are either or both a symptom of PTSD and cognitive dissonance since the psyche can't cope and deal with it.
I'd say that most of SO are in this category and many staff and OT publics.
I'd say that many of us, former old timer staff and SO are hiding those traumas very deep within and keep going on like if all was fine for them