If you are indeed a real person and not a fake osa poster then here is some logical advice
scn is a vicious trap. don't think you are clever enough to get naked with them and not get sucked in
stop ignoring all the true advice from the posters here that have dozens of years of experience...
there is no philosophy. scn is simply a thief of centuries old practices.
go learn and practice Buddhist meditation, Yoga, creative visualization, assertiveness training, and prayer. pray to whomever or whatever you want ... it is a practice to channel whatever spiritual power you have and...